This Darkness Deep

When I saw the break of day
I wished that I could fly away
Instead of kneeling in the sand
Catching teardrops in my hand

Norah Jones – “Don’t Know Why”

This darkness deep inside me steeps
Its grip upon my soul stings
But I don’t remember how to release
I want to cry, but tears won’t fall
Hidden deep inside past my recall
And thus it remains to my dismay
I can’t shake it in the face others’ misery
And I tell myself I should want to be free
Yet sleepless I shrugged feigning the blasé
When I saw the break of day

This darkness deep inside me steeps
It slinks around like a sentient thing
Sneering at dawn’s early light
Sometimes I remember this shouldn’t be
But then that hope is swept from me
This melancholy holding me in sway
I’m losing grip on my control
Yet I smile, I laugh, I play the role
Because I don’t know what to say
I wished that I could fly away

This darkness deep inside me steeps
Crept into my soul on silent wings
And taken up residence there
So long I’ve floundered in this brackness
I know not the way from this blackness
And when it’s more than I can stand
I buckle under feeling drained
As all my aspirations have waned
To sail, to soar, live a life grand
Instead of kneeling in the sand

This darkness deep inside me steeps
A siren’s call, my dirge it sings
And I start to think I like the sound
Wondering how long before I break
I pray the Lord my soul to take
This misery in mocking demand
For the silver lining I can’t find
Knowing it’s not just in my mind
Joy’s a thing I can’t understand
Catching teardrops in my hand

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dVerse ~ Poets Pub | Poetics

4 thoughts on “This Darkness Deep

  1. i agree with björn – that has a blues feeling to it and the repetitions work so well to make your point
    those darkness lurking is a difficult thing to deal with and a lot of light is needed to fight it – i know moments like this as well

  2. Depression ..a thief..
    in the night
    that seems
    to never end..
    but it can.. i know
    but didn’t feel then
    again.. Hope.. a message
    that no longer feels in the dark..
    Survival.. the only way.. to go on..
    Change is certain in life.. sooner or
    later.. and with zero feelings for me
    eventuAlly Change came..
    healing from within..
    nows.. and nows
    to go..
    Will
    to Survive.
    a wait of Life
    comes again..:)

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