If I Didn’t Know…

There’s a scratch on my heart ,
You’ve put it there,
The memory is seared
Forever in my soul’s care
Every now and then,
I run a finger across to feel the sting
For it’s all I have left of you
And it’s the worst to know how hard I still cling

Now I’m left wishing
Your kisses meant much more
Than just another
Notch on the bed post to score
Even knowing
That you never loved me so
You’re still in my heart
And for the life of me, I can’t let go

If I didn’t know
How your smile filled me with delight
If I didn’t know
How your arms felt holding me tight
If I didn’t know
How your lips tasted in the night

If I didn’t know
It would be better now

When people say
To follow your heart
They never tell you how
When it’s in a million parts
I spend each night
Praying for one less tear to cry
So quick to say “Hello”
Why can’t my heart now say “Goodbye” ?

It was easier
When you were just a fantasy
When there was never
A chance to be a “you and me”
It was all so easy
When just a figment of my brain
Because I never imagined
You’d be the source of all this pain

So if I didn’t know
How your smile filled me with delight
Or if I didn’t know
How your arms felt holding me tight
And if I didn’t know
The taste of your lips in the dark night

Oh, if I just didn’t know
It would be so much better now
So much better now

11 thoughts on “If I Didn’t Know…

  1. I read your work, and enjoy it. But I admit I also wonder which things are autobiographical, and if I know the protagonist(s)! 😀

  2. To say I love this is an understatement. Thanks for sharing and reminding me that we all have similar moments and are not alone. Beautifully written.

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