I Just Want You To Know

And I don’t want the world to see me
Cause I don’t think that they’d understand
When everything’s made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am

“Iris” by the Goo-Goo Dolls / “City of Angels” Soundtrack

Some question my sanity year after year
That I’ m not quite right is abundantly clear
Stepping in and out of darkened lucidity
The voices in my head are mostly a minor din
But that yellow dress you wore that day did me in
It was the red cape to the bull of my insanity
And the voice gained control was full of hate
As you stepped to me smiling sealing your fate
For my mood was downright ugly
And I don’t want the world to see me

I don’t deny what I’ve done to some women is sick
But you weren’t like those yacht girls who fall so quick
All their smiling as they think I’m at their command
They dangle promises of a young love so sweet
But it’s me holding their hearts, feeling their heat
And then ripping it from them with my bare hand
But you, you disregard all concepts of my deceiving
My inner voices wondering why aren’t you leaving
Never having had an experience like this firsthand
‘Cause I don’t think that they’d understand

False yore flows from my cruel lips with ease
Yards of lies with an inch of truth to please
The truth a means of passage, merely a token
So you yawn in my face, knowing it’s unwise
And yet you laugh seeing the truth in all the lies
Behind every filthy word I’ve ever spoken
From you the truth shines bright and sure
The lightness of your heart, ywis so pure
But can I believe your heart is solid – oaken?
When everything’s made to be broken

And so you survived more than just the night
Even knowing down deep I may never be right
For goodness knows I really didn’t give a damn
If you drowned in all the tears you yield
Brought on by all these damn fears I field
‘Cause you were never part of the program
But you’re still here and nothing denies
How I yearn for the feel of your light in my eyes
But mine are the eyes of a tragedy ma’am
I just want you to know who I am

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One of my favorite poetry forms: a Glosa.

dVerse Poets Pub: Open Link Night #268

dVerse ~Poets Pub

14 thoughts on “I Just Want You To Know

  1. How beautiful and unique! ☀️ And a great song choice too! You may have started a new way of writing poetry today? I’m thinking there’s going to be some spin-offs from your work! I’ve not seen this type of writing before and if it’s not new for you, I’ve just not read it before today. Nicely done! ☀️

    • Why thank you, Myth. No it’s not new, I’ve written glosas, the form used, for years, At then of the poem I provided a link to glosas. The rules for creating one is there, try one!

      • You bet! Try one? Me? That is a writing style that ‘ naturally’ belongs to you! So well done! ☀️

  2. Raivenne, I love the story your poem tells. I have saved the form instructions with your poem as an example and will be writing one as I love how your story was woven with it. Deep!

  3. Glosa is a challenging form to write and you did well with the inspired quote. That last line summed it all up for me: I just want you to know who I am.

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