Why is my brain so scattered this month?
I barely, and I do mean barely, seem to be able to focus on any specific artistic pursuit to save my life and goodness know I have more than enough things on my to do list that needs to be done. Someone asked what’s up with this blog and I was actually shocked to realize that I had posted nothing since September 8. Granted part of lack of content, as all who know me in real life are aware, is the celebration of my birth month of September. Between preparing for vacation, being on vacation and the various activities surrounding my birthday itself, September is always a whirlwind so no surprise there of the lack of content. However, the dearth of activity in October is another matter all together.
It’s not that I haven’t thought about it. I have. And then … crickets. No new blog entries, not even about my stay in Oregon (and I did have a wonderful time there). No work on about a dozen partially started ideas I have in the queue. I’ve written no new poems; nor have I worked on anything in progress in that realm. The blinking cursor with nothing in front of it has been a very haunting and daunting thing these past couple of weeks as I try to kick-start a muse that seems to still be on the vacation that the rest of me has returned from for already.
It really irks right now me as I am seriously considering entering NaNoWriMo (National Novel Writing Month) to finally put to pixels an idea of mine that has floated on the outskirts of my mind for several years now. I don’t know if entering NaNoWriMo will be a dismal failure if I can’t shake whatever this is that has my brain so scattered or if being forced to concentrate will be the jump-start I need. NaNoWriMo officially starts November 1, I have less than a week to decide. I will say this though, if I do plunge in, unfortunately this blog will be what suffers the most. So, for you few followers/subscribers who’ve patiently stuck through this dry spell with me thus far, I thank you so much and kindly ask for just a little more patience as I tackle this. After all nothing beats a failure, except to not even try right? And when have I not at least tried?
Hmmm, sounds like I’ve made a decision there doesn’t it?
I think my inability to write has been because of the shitstorm that’s been my life for a while and now I am literally hunkering down in a snow belt for a long winter—knowing for sure that I’m going to be socked in until February at least so this is the time for me to pick up that novel I’d been unable to move on with (keeping my fingers moving with a blog entry here and there, a tailor-made fairy tale or two) and now I have no excuse. So I wish you luck, although you don’t need it, I wish you a toasty cozy winter and plenty of creative juices and productivity. Cheers!!!
Thanks CP! I know the battle you’ve been fighting and I am so happy for you that it is indeed over. You’ve earned this peaceful time in spades and I equally wish you an abundance of creative fruitfulness. See you after “The End” . * raises glass *
NaNoWriMo is a great experience- even if you do miserably, it usually helps my creative juices get going again. I say tackle it head on!
Thanks for the words of encouragement Bethea!!
Actually, just writing and posting this is “something”. Sometimes, that’s all it takes to spark us, just putting something on paper–or screen, I guess it is theses days. I say we shouldn’t concern ourselves with what we haven’t done lately, but look forward with excited expectation to what we will do. Because, we will!
I’m kicking around an idea for a new novel myself, and have noticed this NaNoWriMo thing in several bloggers posts. I might have to check it out. I mean, I have so much extrat ime on MY hands! hahaha
Keep on keeping on, Raivenne!
My latest! http://charleslmashburn.wordpress.com/2011/10/19/perfect-love/
May all those creative juices come thick n juicy for you.